Never Let Me Want For Love

Never let me want for love,
Let me show you how I care,
Always hold me up,
And don't let my heart tear.

Kiss me with your mouth so sweet,
Declare you love me frequently,
Teach me things I never knew,
Show me what you see.

Hold me close when I am sad,
I know it happens far too much,
Show me you're a helping hand,
And not just another crutch.

Be a lover and a friend,
And want me all you can,
I promise I'll be yours forever,
Just so long as you're my man.

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Solitude finds my deepest thoughts,
Growing like thorny vines as they age,
In my longest dreams I never knew,
The hope that arrived the day you came.

I have been an empty shell of what was,
A cut out of a shallow version of me,
But I never smiled more than the day,
You hung on my every word.

And yes, I lied, pretending I didn't care,
I thought it would be an easy thing to fake,
I've lied about bigger badder things,
How hard could it be to deny love.

The agony I feel about all those little things,
I've buried it till my heart will burst,
It's easy to hide things when you're empty,
It's hard to lie when your heart is full.

Everyone can smile and I'll play along,
Dancing around the truth like the child I am,
But deep down in my overflowing heart,
I know it would be better if you found someone else.

The Lilies

I refused to ponder the lilies,
Their death was not of my concern,
I fake a smile as they fade away,
And I let my heart burn.

My own tortured soul,
Won't let me think on them,
It'll break my heart wide open,
And force me to feel again.

I don't dream like I used to,
My thoughts only fade to black,
So I pretend to be a better person,
While I bite my own back.

I don't think about the lilies dying,
Because I don't want to appear weak,
I pretend to be bold and daring,
To hide my soul which is meek.

So I let feelings go from me,
As time passes slowly by,
To keep my mind away from the thought,
That the ones I love will also die.

Liberty and Justice

Giving up on society,

Sunk deep into depravity,

Walking around in the streets,

My feet like my heart as it beats. 

Falling ever more quickly,

We sink as a society,

We dreamed and we broke,

And the city with its smoke, 

Threatened our lungs to collapse,

And we breathe and relapse,

Our once beautiful nation,

Our crushed beaten civilization.

Oh how we've broken her,

And ruined her future,

We've failed all our mothers,

Not to mention the others,

Ruined race of men,

We cursed our own children.

We dreamed and believed,

Broke our backs as we heaved,

Worked with our sweat and blood,

Our tears like a flood,

Only to wake up and see,

This bent version of humanity,

We the people so ruined and flawed,

Are we still one nation under God? 

My Life is a Song

My life is a song,
The melody of agony,
The lyrics of truth,
The rhythm of happiness.

It's music is soft one moment,
Then roaring loud the next,
And my own head is pounding,
No matter the volume.

Few can hear my song,
Even less can love it,
It's a tune God made,
And it's written daily.

Sometimes I want to erase it,
Pretend that it never went off-key,
But each mistake makes it unique,
And someday we all have to face our song.

What I Am

I'm more than I dreamed I would become,
I'm not what everyone expects of me,
I'm not shallow and I'm not fake,
I'm more real than I thought I'd be.

I'm a lover not a fighter,
But I'll fight hard for love,
I'm a believer and a dreamer,
A better world is what I dream of.

I can pretend and I can lie,
But I choose to be a good person,
I can push myself to great lengths,
And I won't turn and run.

I can move on from pain,
I can grow from tragedy,
I am willing to give my life,
For those I call my family.

To My Family

It took me several years to realize,
That sins can be forgiven,
It took a few reckless nights for me to realize,
I don't have to act like a fool.

It took several long talks with my oldest brother to realize,
I don't have to worry about growing up,
It took my sister in law telling me I could do anything,
For me to realize I have a future.

It took the love of my brother, Philip,
To show me how to be loyal,
It took the words of my sister, Sarah,
For me to not feel so alone.

It took me seeing every act of my oldest sister,
To teach me true kindness,
It took seeing my brother in law marry my sister,
For me to believe in true love.

It took the unending love of my parents,
To raise me into who I am,
It's taken me a very long time but now I realize,
That I am worth loving.